One month

My youngest son has been in Afghanistan one month now. Prayer is getting me through and relying on the promises. I especially like the one from John I think it is- that takes about us being in his hand. Last sun. we talked 2 min on skype and it cut us off. I got to see him (video cam) he looks well. He is a believer, has had good witness with his fellow Marines. I pray for them all every day every time I think about it.

In addition through this My oldest brother has 4 brain surgeries this month. Now he had fungus growing in and out side of his brain and is having hallucination. A month before that is was a heart attack- they put him on plavicks and asprin a day. Messed up his blood and then he had a brain bleed. I am not sure my brother is a believer.
All this really underlines prayer importance in my life.

A New Journey

Two weeks ago, I started a new journey- Mom of a deployed soldier. I've shed a lot of tears. You never want your son to go. It's a tug of war - you are proud of him for wanting to serve but also want them to come home and end the war. It would be easier for you to go serve than to let your children go. There is anger when it seems those powers that be see them as expendable. They are husband, fathers, sons, daughters, mothers, sisters. You think of the hours you've invested in each of your children- you want them to do something for others but not go to war. I still believe in freedom, but some will never want freedom like we have and are quickly losing. They are happy with their bondage and don't see it as such. I got my first letter today- they are going out- it's going to be hard. I confess I really can't listen to the news any more. I can't watch movies about fallen soldiers. Too much of a reminder what I maybe called upon- I pray not. I am sad for those who've lost children but now I am on the roller coaster- My heart sinks when I read of them losing their lives. Someones son/daughter, someones brother, husband, friend. How do they survive this. I know the Lord has him in his hands Ps 139:10 but it rains on the just and unjust a like. The journey will last 8 mos. a lot of prayers needed.